***Sigh***

So tired..stomach so pain..feeling so unwell...
I wanna shout I wanna get out of this life...

Jus sadded...feel bby is diff frm last time le..ppl change ba..i dont mind but
he has change to the extent tt i feel so neglected...
we have happy times we play around li kids..we are having fun we r loving we r happy
but recently he seems to neglect me alot...not willing to talk to me more..not willing to see me often..even we meet, he is so cold so distant...he doesnt talk much he kept so quiet..so unlike the time we used to have..
when i ask him, he say nothin, he say mayb tired mayb bad mood...but in the past he aso always tired...but we stil can play arund he can cheer me up i can cheer him up...but now is all diff...

i love him..n i m so sad by his changes...i wanna cry..he think of it as nothing but to me its alot...i m hurt...when he say i think too much...i didnt want to either..its jux his way of treating me...sigh..sobx

he goin in army soon...if he continues lidat..think we will be v distant n i m scared..i dont want tt to happen..he is v important..if i lose him i wont know wat to do...he is the only guy tt i want to be together for long..n the only guy my mom likes...which means alot to me....i wan to be blessed...i want to be loved....

bby i doubt u will get to see dix..though i wish u to see n understand how i feel by readin dix post..if u see dix bby..plx do sthing bt it can...i wan u always together..n we can be always happy n being together..n we wil be still as loving after u come put frm ns...

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