***Xing Qing Fu Zha..messy heart messy mind weak body***

Today early in the mornin about 8am, went to help my sister sell food to pri sch kids..they are really li monkeys sia..its like their parents nv feed them, recess time all run out..siao de...
Today very tired..1230 bring my nephew to kindergarden den i went hoem to do my nails and bath...den immed i went out...took a bus to lavender..den a cab to the kallang blah blah balh, aplace where i gonna have my interview...n the cab uncle pissed me off....i m definately gonna write a complain letter...
this is what happen: the address the company gave me i tell the uncle..den uncle say wrong la shld be the other side..den he scold me...wtf...if i ever gone to the place at all will i take tt stupid cab...stupid idiot so rude no brain..i record his name n taxi number down liao..n confirm gonna write in a complain letter...bth..super pissed off....i pay $ give him scold..fuck la....

The interview turns out nice...i m nt nervous or wat..i ans very easily no panic or wad..my 1st best interview..guess my credit card promoter job did help me alot in speaking more confidently ba..i guess? lol
Interview starts 230pm ends at 330pm...boring..i went to bugis to shop for shorts, drink a cup of coke..hmmm den went to find bus....4+ pm found my bus to orchard...lol...went to plaza sing to buy movie tickets..wait for bby..

den 645 see the movie pink panther...wat a stupid show...
its darn farni but it damn stoopid..seriously idiotic...."i have 4 m m m"---if u watch the show u noe wat i mean..whahaha...darn farni..bth..laugh till i almost die...

today body very weak..breathin super difficulty like anitime wil suffocate...sianx...i m worried but i m jux too reluctant to go see a doctor...to me the doctors cant help...i dont trust dey r tt good..i believe i will jux recover on my own...

reach home bt 12mn...reach home bath den sat on the sofa n daze...seeing the calender...bby gonna go ns is jux a 1 wk plus time..omg..i cant believe tt is coming...i feel li crying...i m sure i gonna miss him darn alot...bby bby...

so sad so sad...

if happens tt i got the job..it will be on the 9 to 12 march but bby is goin to tekong on the 11th...
i m very confused very contradicting now....shld i wrk or not wrk?
i need the money...but i feel bby is more important den tt..after bby go ns..i still can find job and wrk anitime..feel i shld instead spend the whole day n night w him rather tt wrkin...
but den my mom noe i went for interview today...if i say i give up tt job..she will scold li mad sia...haix

sigh..but i really wish to spend as much time as possible with bby..every day every hour every minutes every seconds with bby...

I AM GONNA MISS BBY SO MUCH!!!! {feel li crying}