***feeling the "kinda"***

Feeling kinda moody, kinda sad, kinda lost, kinda .....

Feel li crying..tears at the edge...feel li crap...feel sulky...feel i shouldnt even try at all...feel i shouldnt try to like myself as well...

.......................didnt wanna say too much..jux wanna type out how i feel now........................



***i love him i really do..i miss him i really miss him***

today saturday see so many bota at orchard...every little thing reminds me of bby..
i miss him i miss him I MISS HIM!!!!!!!

can u faster come back... ='(



***alone all alone***

alone at home..mom go cruising trip left me alone...bby today field camp..1st time bby nv call me..feel weird.but i adjust well..
seriously think..startin of relationship one day nv see him whole day mood nt really gd sia..so everyday meet..see him makes me happi..v happi in fact

Now it seems tt alright but once he book out i m still very very happi..but the way he treat me make me feel disappointed..rather nt see him..but i miss him..haix..wo shi ge bei can de nu ren..
duno y i make myself seems so desperate..i do nt know why..

i gt one big problem..frenx..can u help me..i love him alot...i scared to lose him..
P.S Frenx or strangers happen to see dix post help me out..
how can i trust him..i find myself very hard to trust him..
he had once firlt by sms w other gals..ok i hate tt biatch..i know tt..i hate him too..but at the same timei love him alot..
i wanted to trust him again so tt we both can be better n i can be more relax nt guessin too much makin myself damn sad when he go out w anione...
i m a possessive person...but if i cld trust him i believe i can give him mre freedom n at the same time both of us are happi....

but it seems so hrd..wat shld i do?