***so sian***

Dun have to go back there to wrk..i kinda feel relived...

But this few days i feel so bored...nothin to do... call my bf plan somethin for us to do hor..end up everyday at home play psp nia -_-"

Now i looking for job..no idea wat i wan..mayb mre frontline or mayb back to old line which is HR..but this time i wan full spectrum HR, i dun wan li learn nothin lidat..in my ex company, so call HR asst but do mostly nothin much w regards to HR de...mre li clerk tt do administrative duties nia...its meaningless if learn nthin..esp boring admin wrk..



***sigh***

crying le.. finally cannot tahan cry le..

y am i behaving lidat recently??

haix.. hate myself so much..

my bf so kelian, enduring my temper shouting, tears, etc...

sometimes its without reason, its my emotions...

i hate myself for treating him lidat..

So I decide to cry on my own, shout on my own... really duno how to unwind myself man..

arghxxx!!!



***feeling weird***

Feeling weird today..glad tt tml no have to face tt job again..but den again i feel lost or rather empty..

recently feel so bored lo..gt the v lethargic slack tired bored feeling..awhile happi awhile depress..gonna be mad liao..

Jus msn w my bf, told him i think i really need to unwind myself..need to have some activities tt is fun..make me have fun at least..

I m thinkin of wat to do since i m so broke, as well as him..i really duno leh..do wad den can have fun...mmmm

feel li bursting liao..duno y...all i can think of is sighing leh..

life is short life is gd enjoy life ...but how come i dun feel at all, how come cant enjoy my life leh...mmm.. y i have this character tt always make myself feel so miserable..jus hate myself sometimes lo...haix



***my future is a blank***

Again, my path is lost..wahahaha..sian

Went interview last sat, ok ok lo nv really prepare anithing..
Today Cristofori called to offer me a job, location wise Good, pay wise mian qiang can accept..but den Annual Leave wise totally cant..

Only 7days..dots..
if go overseas, dont say malaysia, taiwan (neighbouring country etc).. if go taiwan (at least 4-5days)..Korean (at least 7 days)

So 7days of Annual Leave is confirm plus guarantee no enough one...

Now jus hope MOE can call me.. and if they call, I can pass interview
Meanwhile tryin to re-hunt job again..in case MOE dun wan me..lol

SiaNzZzzzzz.........



***What should I Do?***

All the bosses just went out for meeting.. and CAG(Chao Ah Gua) today on course whole day no need see him so gd..

Nthin much to do now, or I shld say totally nthin to do yet.. mayb later..

So sian.. Now I wanna blog some options for my future after i leave here..
1. Awaiting MOE interview till 25March
--> Yes (Go for it) --> No ( option 2)

2. Interview w Cristofori
--> Yes. Pay, location, job scope, career path gd (Go for it) --> No (following options)

3. Study 'A' lvl ownself and find job(educational or banking)


hao fan ar...best is gib me struck toto 4d anithing tt can give me mani $.. so no need so fan.. can jus study, no need wrk

So tired, eyes so heavy gonna slp liao le



***SUPER PISSED***

cant take it man, too pissed off..

the ah gua always call me print things, photocopy things etc etc... already buey song, an wei ownself say mayb he v bz since his team so small nia, he gt alot things to do..

but den today i think its not only the case..
(him being a ma pi jing)...he called me n said sthin tt make me super bu suang.
he call me bind something, say by today need to bind hao cox tml have to give my deputy director..
den he say bind hao le put under his desk, tml he pass to the deputy director..(for info, the deputy jus seats behind me nia)
y cant i bind liao straight awy give her..instead i have to go n put at the ah gua desk n tml he personally give to her leh???
claim credit?? si ma pi jing..
f**ing pissed off lo..
where gt this kind of chao ah gua one... the way he talk already super erxin (always pai ma pi), den his attitude..wa lan... i m asst to the deputy lo.. not to him..arghxxx..so pissed off



***The name I used for 21 yrs***

What Ang Swee Hia Means


You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.


You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.


You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.


You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.

You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.

You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.


You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.

You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.

You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!


You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.



You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.


You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.







***torturing moments***

in office now, waiting for lunchtime..
feel so so so tired, wanna slp very very much lo..

whole morning did almost nthin, slacking awy surf net etc.. (only did some updates for the fan si ren de meeting)

my table so mani things to do..medical claims haven check(tis is easy)
sian part is stupid chao ah gua things haven do, i super lazy go n punch hole n bind so mani mani things for him lo.. n as n when he will keep coming ask do hao le ma(since he so free walk here n there, smile gayly... when cant he do himself?.. really pissed off)
wife so chio but he is a chao ah gua...er xin ar!!!!



***stupid chao ah gua***

stupid chao ah gua..everytime call me do things he dun wan to do..

i curse n swear him ar,, he think i his maid ar.. idiotic..

so pissed off leh .... ARGHXXX